Trying to keep up without losing myself
I've been starting to think that this next year is going to hold a lot of changes for our family... in more than just adding the newest member to the crew.
I've also been trying to figure out what I do best and how I am the best me for my family... and at the same time I've been trying to list out goals for myself for 2018.
Lets be honest though with 2 toddlers and 7 weeks left to go in my 3rd pregnancy ... I am not the best at "Sit down make a list and photograph it so it looks cute"
My attempt at making a goals list for my new year is more like this.
Thinks of awesome way to improve self in 2018
Makes mental note of said idea as she carries 1 year old in left arm and holds 2 year olds hand in the HEB parking lot.
Gets done shopping and then gets home absolutely exhausted and doesn't even want to stay awake let alone make a list of things she's gonna do better next year.
Lets just go ahead and add "Get better at making lists" to 2018 goals.
😂😂😂
But if I had to make a short list of things I absolutely do want to get better at this next year ... this would be it.
I've also been trying to figure out what I do best and how I am the best me for my family... and at the same time I've been trying to list out goals for myself for 2018.
Lets be honest though with 2 toddlers and 7 weeks left to go in my 3rd pregnancy ... I am not the best at "Sit down make a list and photograph it so it looks cute"
My attempt at making a goals list for my new year is more like this.
Thinks of awesome way to improve self in 2018
Makes mental note of said idea as she carries 1 year old in left arm and holds 2 year olds hand in the HEB parking lot.
Gets done shopping and then gets home absolutely exhausted and doesn't even want to stay awake let alone make a list of things she's gonna do better next year.
Lets just go ahead and add "Get better at making lists" to 2018 goals.
😂😂😂
But if I had to make a short list of things I absolutely do want to get better at this next year ... this would be it.
- Stress about small stuff less
- Be more selfless
- Take more pictures of my family
- Write about motherhood often
- Enjoy being a mom...and do whatever it takes to do that.
Its funny because as I look at my list... and I actually read it... I can see through to this last year and how much I really struggled to LOVE motherhood through the tough stuff.
You might be saying "That's crazy how could you dislike motherhood"
or "You don't seem that way at all"
Yeah... I know.
See this year was filled with a lot of change and a LOT of that change was all at the same time and NOT on my schedule.
which is totally normal. . . but also not my favorite thing in the world.
But the thing that helped me SO MUCH during that stress was photographing my boys and their never ceasing joy at every second. NO matter the big stuff going on in our life they didn't see it...they only saw the happy stuff.
I LOVE the photos of our life that I have from this EXTREMELY stressful year...
Living in a house that really shouldn't have been lived in...
getting evicted due to a misunderstanding. . . RIGHT after Robb quit his job to find a new one.
Moving to a new town. . .
getting new jobs. . .
and finding out we were pregnant AGAIN. . . for the 3rd time in 3 years.
What I find funniest when I look at this list of things is the fact that I want to be better at being happy with my life. Being happy with it how it is. . . and not getting caught up in saving face or being perfect because that's what is expected on social media.
Nah. . . I'm too real for that.
If you were to come knock on my door right now... ha ha ha I would let you in.
I'd say watch out for the toys on the floor.
and pull up the only chair we have to sit on for you and make you a cup of the most delicious coffee you've ever tasted.
But my house would be a mess.
And I think I'm done saying sorry for that.
Not saying "well to hell with it all I'm never cleaning again" LOL cause um yeah that wouldn't go well.
But more like...if you want to be involved in my life and my kids lives... I'm not going to try to be perfect or impress you. And I'm not going to hold my children to a standard that tells them that their behavior will get them brownie points with people who love them.
Come on over. Stay a while. I'll probably be in pajamas and have no make up on.
Or better yet last nights make up on 😁😁😁
SO if You need to work on enjoying motherhood more, Let me know.
Share your day to day with me because I want to be there to cheer you on, to motivate you where it counts and to really really help you to make 2018 the year you ENJOY your family and who you are at your best. WHATEVER that looks like for you.
For me that means making my coffee in a togo mug with a lid and not caring if I finish it.
Singing the Alphabet 1000 times with my toddlers
Taking photos of my kids because they make my heart so so so very happy.
Enjoying EVERY last second of smudges on doorways and crumbs on my carpet because eventually they WILL grow up and they WILL know better and it WONT be loud in my house anymore. <3
Make 2018 the best You can.
-Jessica
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